So long ago my days got lost
With all my strength that kept me alive
And I don't want to fight this dream
That keeps on disturbing the will to live inside me
Thoughts like knives embrace the pain
Until the night fades and dawn arrives
Please say am I not strong enough?
Oh - tell me do I have to shatter all my memories?

Turning all the pages from the books that should dissolve my chains
But why do all these words blur out get tainted by my blood?
How am I supposed to save myself from this insanity
If all that I can sense is just that I'm not good enough?

So far away I hear your cries
I know it's my fault giving you pain
But what is wrong or what is right?
I wish all your tears would just fade under this cold rain

Turning up the white noise to get rid of screams inside my mind
At least I can escape from all the pain these voices cause
How am I supposed to raise my fists and cause a fight for life
If everything's distorted that I don't want to be lost

I fear the pain the dawn the night
Within these days I'm trying to survive
I wish for rest I wish for dreams
I wish I knew reality
Inside this hell of mind I keep on wasting all my time

I fear the day your hands won't guide
I fear the pain that will be left inside
All that's left for me to do is to
Ignore distort and break these binds
Strings attached to my mind and soul
Made me bleed cutting deep until pain wore off
Is my existence a joke to you?
You dare to prison me in solitude?

Yet all my motives aren't ones that should be judged by your means
If you keep soiling all I am I'll be the one you shall fear
I'm not a saint nor am I righteous but I know how it feels
To be corrupted by the systems held-up narrowminded schemes

Stop
Don't let your fear embrace your strength inside
For all that matters it is time to make our hopes align
To let shadows shatter
To make thorns surrender
That captivated your light inside
Have you forgotten?
These words are rotten
It's time to break and shatter all these lies

Why can't I just be like the 'normal human' kind?
Dreaming of a future without these nightmares
What if I were able to go back to these days
Could I fight their faces their gloating stirrups?
Help is there an answer to questions that suffice?
Maybe I could let go if I try to fight?
Trapped in webs of past days in darkness locked with smiles
Tell me what you’re seeing as I open up

Plythe cie feh mei nuh nihye
Waii mis echouv waii mis echah widhyé?
Lochar cie mih ien cet Tuchelhye
Cet ré mis crei screi chó yáhz allhyé?
Smaryé blihd ie mih ua chust eh
Whe is ré Puoa ah thyé mis swaé cha
Wheyé fyaertyé mis ecctrahae
Yé waii mis ellye nyeve sahyé?

I live the pain all day and night
I feel the pain that’s burnt inside
All that's left for me to do is to
Stand up keep up fuck up their might
Knives attached to my soul and heart
Made me bleed cutting deep until dusk till dawn
Just tell me was it all fun and games
To prison me in a made up cage?

Yet I can say that all your words have weight quite heavy on me
But you kept messing with emotions that you couldn’t foresee
I'm not a saint nor am I god but that’s the point where it ends
This is your last advice to run and hide as fast as you can

I won’t let them take again what is supposed to be mine
For all that matters it is time to make our lights ignite
To let shadows shatter
To make thorns surrender
From days you tried so long to hide
Have you forgotten?
These words are rotten
It's time to break and shatter all their lies